An update on my life!

[Fusion]

Okay so I think I left off when I was about halfway through first semester and literally drowning in my classes (maybe midterms?). I can't particularly remember. So I'll just start there and try to break it down for you guys, maybe you still care?

So, I really managed to clean up my school work habits first semester. After doing really awfully on my first Physics Test (40% when class average was 50%), I really kicked it into high gear. The rest of my classes for the first semester I studied my ass off most of the time and ended up getting 2 B+'s, a B, and an A- after starting pretty awfully to be perfectly honest. So I was insanely happy that finals studying as well as just getting more focused really ended up paying off in the end.

As for my major, I'm seriously considering scrapping Physics. I've come to realize in my personal experience as well as everyone at University of Virginia that the Physics department here is really, really shitty. Just a bunch of brilliant guys who have no clue how to teach the lower level classes which ends up destroying you in the upper level physics classes if you have never taken any physics prior to college. So far I'm really liking Computer Science but I'd end up with a BA in it instead of a BS... Not sure how I feel about that to be completely honest. I'll take the same classes as those with a BS (at UVA you may only get a BS if you are in the Engineering School) so hopefully everything works out fine.

This semester I have the deadly combination of Physics, Calculus II, Computer Science, and French... I'm trying to stay optimistic about the workload. I'm having to stay even more organized and focused then I did first semester because at UVA rushing fraternities is in the Spring.

Right now I'm currently rushing a few fraternities and hopefully I manage to get a bid at one of the ones that I like. I've got my fingers crossed. So far the entire process has just confirmed the idea that I really want to join a fraternity so I'll have to see how it works out. The rush events have been insanely fun and it's only the first rounds/cuts. Hopefully I manage to make the second rounds for at least 2 of the fraternities that I'm rushing, as Greek life and rushing is REALLY big here and it becomes insanely competitive.

Backtrack a little bit, my winter break was an awful mix of fun and depression. Literally over the first semester I began talking to one of my high school crushes (I know this sounds immature but that's okay, you can judge all you want) again and we became what I'd like to think was bf/gf without the title. We agreed not to be with anyone but each other, but she is just freaked out by the exact word since a few events in her past (very long story). However, she goes to a different college about 3 and a half hours away from mine and I have no means of transportation to see her. So, I thought the best thing to do was to essentially tell her that we should give this a real shot over holiday break where I can see her everyday and really just spend time with her. You know, start it off right? I non-stop hang out with her over break, things seem great. We aren't hooking up or anything but I was honestly just happy to spend time with her. I'm happier when around her and we always have a blast. One night early on in break we get to talking and she pretty much plainly says that she thought she wanted a relationship but wasn't ready for one now... So I'm completely thrown off at this point. She still texts me and calls me and wants to hang out all break. So many mixed messages. New Years she has a party at her house and we end up hooking up (mind you she's sober since it was her house) and sleep in the same bed that night (no sexy time).

The next day I'm extremely happy, thinking she's turned around on the idea of dating. However later that night I called her and she seemed really, really reserved. Just not acting normal, so obviously I ask, "Is everything okay?". She drops the bomb on me that she completely lead me on on New Years and that she hasn't changed her mind on dating. Boom. So confused, depressed. She still wants to hang out all the time and I just keep rejecting her. Basically I told her that I needed to talk to her and really tell her how I feel. I sacked up and we went down by the locks where the boats come in and out. I tell her that I've fallen in love with her and I can't keep getting lead on by her, how it was basically tearing me up inside. How it was just putting me in the worst situation. I tell her how much I like her and everything but I couldn't wait for her anymore. She insisted it wasn't that she wasn't attracted to me it was just that she didn't want to be in a relationship right now. That was a serious bombshell to me. Once she told me that, I knew what I had to do. I told her that I wouldn't be calling her anymore, texting her, or contacting her in any way. I had to cut her out of my life to get over her. Felt bad man. First time ever dropping the love-bomb and rejected.

Fast forward about 2 weeks after winter break. I find out that she was hooking up with a guy at her school. She had invited him over break to come to our hometown, but her couldn't because of work. Then she asked him to be her boyfriend... He rejected.

Honestly got fucking black-out drunk that night. Removed her from Facebook. Hope I never see her again. Ever. There was always one thing that I asked her when we had our frequent talks about everything (extremely deep/emotional conversations, even when friends) and that was to promise to always be honest with me. Don't ever worry about hurting my feelings, tell it to me like it is. Guess that promise was broken. Bad news is she's in the same circle of friends as me at home at least and I won't be able to face her without blowing up or honestly breaking down completely.

TL;DR confess to girl that I love her, she says she isn't ready for relationship, find out she is hooking up with other guy and asked him to be her boyfriend.

So... yeah. I also went snowboarding over break with a few friends with my brand new board, was a good amount of fun. If anyone is a boarder here I ride a 155cm Rome Crail board, Burton Freestyle Bindings, Burton Moto Boots. Rides so well.

Any questions; I'll be around for a bit, feel free to ask or update me on your life in exchange.

Thanks for listening.

[Revenge]

hoes gon be hoes

[Danger]

What fraternities are you rushing?

We just finished rushing our new boys THANK GOD.
I'm ready to just get all this over with and start their pledgeship

[Fusion]

Uhhh its down to Phi Gamma Delta and Phi Delta Theta

[ellieee]

Hi Alex!

[Danger]

Oh nice phi delt
They're pretty cool here - we had a huge halloween party with them and it was awesome


You go to UVA right? I think there's a Deke chapter there

[Fusion]

Lol yeahhhh about Deke here...


all rich coke heads

[Danger]

I'd fit in perfectly





(just kidding I don't do coke...)

[Logan]

i do pepsi

[Revenge]

I do bacon